late nite =]

so thursday nite me & the best stayed up all night making videos & taking pics .

we didnt go to bed till 7:30am .

here's one of our videos lmao .

dont even ask !

aim me ! lol

im sorry no wait i take that back .

no im not sorry && i dont feel bad for wanting a change in MY life .

its time for me to do things that make

ME

happy && not everyone else .

&& thats exactly what im doing =]

so yesterday im looking through like 300 buddies on aim ,

& i noticed i had a lot of people on my block list .

for what !?

i had to start blocking people because everytime i put up an away somebody assumes something or swear im just saying stuff so they can see it .

& TRUST THAT IS NOT THE CASE .

i dont feel the need to enteratain anyone thru awaysz .

so to change that i just made a new screenname =] .

azrellebxtch <3

my heart

"&& when words fail music speaks "

-there is always a song that can match how i feel that day .

music is my life ! i would die without it !

some of my "friendsz" say im weird because in the depressed state rnb & slow jamsz relax me .

its suppose to make me cry .

but no it rarely does .

music came to be the one who understands me !

my shuffle always knows what song to play at the right time .

music is new profound love =]

welcome =]

&& today marks my first enconter with this new blogging thing . =] .

hmmm i have soo much to write about .

thoughts just run through my head like an express highway during rush hour .

there'sz never a time when my head is clear && i can stop thinking .

there'sz just so much about me that a lot of people never even seen or knew .

maybe this can help me express myself more .

its time for me to try a fresh new start .

my sophmore year in college is one whole year that i wish i will never have to experience again .

im through with all of the bull & irrelevant things .

im done with it !

&& the only way i can move forward is to erase all of the people out of my life which is irrelevant to me .

i have to erase all the people that can do absolutely nothing for me .

i have always been the one that everyone come to for their problems .

i always took my time & listened & helped people thru their situations.

but when it comes to me i have no one who would actually want to sit there & really listen & talk to me !

im sorry but im done being there for everyone !

now im focusing on me && only me =] .

azrellebxtch <3